Aren’t the horses lovely in the sun – bright blue sky above them, and (if Im bored enough) plaits in their manes 🙂
Today I’m feeling kind of blue – not sky blue, more of a shadow blue. I heard from a friend, and my work companions have been in good spirits but I can’t seem to shake the fact that – I just feel sad today.
I guess its from all those conversatinos I seem to be having that involve the quite apparent need for a change in my life, but my fear / inability to actually do anything.
Yesterday a student (and therefore technically my inferior) said to a visitor that my project wasn’t going anywhere (as In I wasn’t achieveing anything)..even my boss jumped to my defense saying that was a bit rude, but the damage was done. He’s right. Im not getting anywhere. The realisation of this is quite depressing.
After a blissful 2 months of no migraines and clear skin, I’m now officially run out of the prefferred discontinued hormonal pill, and as of today – its migraines once or twice a month until I can convice a Dr to give me a referral for some surgery. bleh.
I really feel like I’m not acheiving anything in any aspect of my life right now. I’m not socialising, I’m not pulling my weight with family matters, I’m not painting or writing, my work progress sucks, I’m not making any progress with animate or inanimate aspects of home life – I’m just not getting anywhere. And I’m tired.
Did you miss this drivel? no? didn’t think so….