Dried papaya >>>>> fresh

In case you didn’t know, dried papaya is far superior to fresh.

Just sayin.

I’ve been amusing myself today. God! I am so funny, why can’t anyone else see?

I use a machine called a seahorse that measures oxygen and ph…but lately I’ve been thinking about what if it wasn’t fluorescent probes. What if there is a magical seahorse in that box, jumping between the experiments, Wafting a fin, then pondering and typing his estimate into a tiny keypad. What if someone forgets to feed the seahorse? Anyway on my way home I was planning a cartoon of how I think a seahorse machine should work but figured it was kind of a nerdy niche thing and that maybe, just maybe, noone would care.

People not caring, surely thats a gibbon

Er I think you mean given, as in something which goes without saying?

No, I fairly sure I mean gibbon….thats what I always say in my head and imagine a gibbon standing there checking off a list of things which go without saying, nods – and then he without a word..goes

Glad I got those gems out of my system.maybe I said about the seahorse before? Well I didn’t find it as funny before!

Well I deserved to amuse myself today. Last night I sent an email to collaborator with 2 new figures and the manuscript as best I could finish it….and he replied….only
…he only got as far as the title then basically said there was no point him reading anything unless my boss had oked it…do this was frustrating but the clincher was this…

He made a comment about one of my figures, only, his comment was unrelated to the content and proved he didn’t bother to even look at two pictures!

I was sooooo angry!!!.ok so I’m not a PI But I’ve worked damned hard on this and would quite like some feedback!

After anger came sadness. Anger and sadness came in waves through the day but mostly I just shook them off and plowed on with some other tasks. (quite a fruitful day infact….papaya and all)

Oh logic and ability to string sentences together where for art thou? Hiding softly in the centre of tonights sleep I hope…

A bit of everything

Kitty cat is so happy here, she eagerly awaits me in the mornings, is playful and affectionate and hasn’t missed the litter tray once or stank out the flat. She loves her new scratching post and has shed several claw sheaths ( non cat owners, did you know that cats shed the outer layer of their claws to make way for new sharper edges?). I’m gonna miss the little madam. She is only here until tomorrow afternoon 😦 booooo. Double boo is that the flat MUST be spotless as my bosses mum is coming to collect her.

How the hell do you get a cat in a box? Last time boss lady did it…im not sure this cat will ACTUALLY be leaving tomorrow!

Dusty has been awesome company, wanting cuddles and having cat conversations and generally being a delightful cat-person to have around.

In other news, I had another wedding guest dress dilemma and decided it was time to get a new dress. For the first time in the history of the world I have found a dress that looks better on me than the model used in the photoshoot! Not only this but the sales lady told me I had a gorgeous hourglass shape (ok I’m sold!). Such a sucker for a compliment! This one is unusual for me…a large flower print…oh I’ll just show the link…


I can accessorize with black, black and black and still not look like I’m at a funeral.

Regarding food/weight this not counting thing is great but….I have lost a bit of weight and need to consciously eat more…I had takeaway and canteen food this week but even still the number slid down a bit and I’m left feeling deflated and tired.

Go go gadget nut and seed extravaganza!

Oh speaking of nuts I broke a tooth on a pistachio…I assume it was a bit of shell? Ugh. Drama. Two trips to the dentist to fix it 😦 and two days of being unable to rest my jaw properly but now all fixed and comfy..I have not felt relief like having that monster filling drilled back to size…I could have hugged that lovely eastern European dentist lady (but refrained)

What else can I tell you about? The fact that half a pint of beer got spilt over the coffee table and I was yelled at and told “quick”
Quick what? You are getting cloths, what am I meant to be quickly doing?

Stress. But what I did realise when I cleaned the rug was….oh good lord the carpets are FILTHY. Must get a carpet cleaner on loan, I’m disgusted at the dirt that came off such a small patch of rug. Oh poor rug….its been through the wars this week…cat pulling up fibres, beer, scrubbing. There is surely a limit to the amount of drama a £35 rug will endure!?

Had another dream about ex…weird because it involved his wife and kid…and mostly I was just being a counsellor rather than a temptress which was a nice shift of emphasis! My brain is so silly!

I’ve been bemoaning my lot regarding this infernal manuscript which we are trying to publish. Well. In a very unusual move, one of the journals to which we previous submitted has changed their mind and decided they want us to resubmit for review.
Well I never!
This is all very peculiar – I guess that it depends do heavily on the interest of the editor who happens to see the manuscript , and in this case it turns out an editor who DIDNT see it actually has s lot of interest in the topic.
Now I have the unenviable task of rewriting thr paper in the correct format with the right emphasis as the boss lady is in Hawaii and
I’m feeling a bit out of my depth. Boss is very particular about writing. Collaborator is very aware of underselling I am scared of overselling. Journal is very selective so all in all a huge pressure!!!

And breathe

You know how little kids sometimes sing songs to themselves? I used to sing about princesses and ponies and faeries etc….well imagine if a 30 year old man did this- only he was preoccupied with defacation, genetalia esp gay sex and animal abuse / bestiality. I’ve threatened to record him and start a new blog just showcasing his lyrical ability!!

Do something that scares you

Today I have…
.Seen a doctor about something I’ve been putting off (none of your business just know it’s nothing to worry about)
..Submitted some official correspondence on behalf of my boss (str-ess-full)
…Worked on a new manuscript
….picked 16 ecoli colonies and grown them up
…..sorted out my human tumour cells
……troubleshot a machine malfunction
…….convinced the cat to eat
…….agreed to donate 45ml blood for a TB study

I have also
.done something stupid to my shoulder
..been beeped and verbally abused for cycling on a cycle path (?)
…found nail clippings on the bathmat (ewww)
….reflected on my cantering on Casper yesterday even though I had previous difficulty stopping and slowing him, and with a new bit and noseband…after he played silly buggers backing up before we went out.

It looks like I am being brave this week! Choosing to do some things which are scary. I now feel much safer on Casper as a result and won’t be as nervous again 🙂 maybe I can tackle my fear of blood samples? That or I’ll pass out….meh…

Btw Casper was a little angel…super speedy exhilarating canter (cos I didn’t sone the whole time fighting for control) but slowed when I asked and stopped. He didn’t have a sore mouth either (something I was worried about) and seemed comfortable and responsive with a light contact. Yay. Now I can enjoy riding again 🙂 one day I might let him gallop to let off steam, but small steps at a time!



or if that fails


paper got rejected again without going to review.

Stage Start Date
Review Complete; E-Mail Notification Sent 0000-00-00
Pending Final Recommendation 0000-00-00
Under Editorial Board Review 0000-00-00
Quality Control Review Completed 0000-00-00
Quality Control Review Started 0000-00-00
Author Approved Submission 0000-00-00

This is very frustrating.

IDA- so long

I’m sailing on a ship so smooth
Maybe I don’t have much to lose or win
From your wide open eyes again
With a willing heart and mind I will never be
Far behind

We’re just haunted in our skins
By all that could’ve been
You hide it from your face but it still shows

There’s no words for what you are
You stay while death
Is chasing the stars away
From the night sky
You run

And want what you always wanted back

Time won’t ever swallow everything
If you give all your love(love)

I’ll be waiting
I’ll be waiting
I’ll be waiting

Disjointed phrases

Oh my.
X5 how I loathe thee.
Thy bringer of 90 min panic attacks and motion sickness.


I have not felt so I’ll for a very long time.
Was it worth it?
Well I surprised my sister on her 18th birthday and delivered her present

Oh im getting ahead of myself.
So tired.

Well the answer is yes but it wasn’t just the impending doom for an hour and a half, there was waking up at 6am and cycling in the pouring rain to collect aforementioned giftage from post office depot.

30min walk in heels with suitcase to bus stop

Unknown foodiness turning out to be tomato sauce based yet knowing I had to just eat it and smile

Not having enough to eat for lunch then getting dizzy predinner


Happy sister

And I got to eat a cupcake with purple glitter on so